Candies

Chewing gums
Crunching on toffee
Strawberry, lemon or orange
I’ve got ’em all with me

Depressive episode again
I starve myself
Until I can’t and then goes a candy
In my mouth

In it goes and then I am blind
For the peace
That I don’t have
I forget myself, for a while

Thinking it’s ok
And it’s not

There goes in a candy
Again
And I am vomiting poetries

A Better Place within.. (poetry)

And the fireflies didn’t came to me
Nor those butterflies kept me awake

I made up a magic inside within
And drew the lights from place to place

I made a better place
First for myself
So if someone visits
This fragile little heart
And an ugly fellow

I would make them feel special
With the royalties of my heart
And the loyalty of my words

Shafia Yousuf~

The Cages We Have Created (poetry)

Up holding my higher
But weak and sensitive
Hopes
I draw lines and drawings
With colours and ideas
To cope

To cope up with things
And turn them into magic
The world seems to flee
Inside every tragic

But a time occurs
When you gaze into my stars
With dark intentions
And create scars

I run back to the cages
The society has created
Cutting down my wings
And be a platter to be presented

-Shafia Yousuf~

Another Sunrise (poetry)

Like a rose
that keeps blooming,
though the thorns don’t go away.
Or an ocean,
having jewels deep inside,
where there goes no ray.

Like a sky, having
never ending
situations.
or like the planets
that keep
rotating around the sun
that never warms them up.

I sigh away my heart
as another sunrise shines through the horizons
and I feet hurt
‘Cuz i couldn’t sleep or keep myself away

from the chains i am stuck with

I’m not Dull (poetry)

A game like tug of war
Where you keep pulling the rope

If you pull it,
You’ll win and fall back
But, if it pulls you,
You’ll lose and go forward.

This game i call depression
That world doesn’t likes to mention
Pretending to ignore
Like nothing ever goes wrong
The fake smiles and silent cries
We’ve failed to recognize

They are not dull, after all.
They have problems, to be solved.

-Shafia Yousuf

I know~ (poetry)

It’s like being so out of control.
Like feeling things to the level, you don’t understand. Things make you feel triggered and exhausted and sometimes you just want to vomit everything out. Wanting to sleep all day, but, surviving sleepless nights. And when you get so tired, you just lay down and imagine all the fantasies you really need in your life and then all of a sudden you lose the grasp of knowing what is real and what is not.

I know you feel so lonely

I know you think it’s hard for anyone, there with you, to ever understand what you are going through

I know there is a huge part of your life, all empty and you are waiting for someone to fill it up with colours

I know you think this world is so big and completely terrifying

I know, sometimes, it gets so hard to understand what is the reality and what fantasy you have created in your head

I know you feel so distant from others, even though you are sitting right beside them

I know you feel fragile and can’t stop crying and can’t really understand the reason of you to be on that stage

I know you are broken and are willing to do anythingto fix it

I know you are hurting

But let me tell you a secret

Everyone in this world is like a piece of puzzle and they somehow meet other puzzles and join together. Some just don’t join but atleast help them to understand what they need. But at the end of the day, everyone finds their way out.

At the very specific time and moment, you’ll know your worth and will also create a very strong relation with someone, so special, your life will turn upside down and you’ll see sky beneath you and there will be nothing in your way. All you’ll ever know will be your way to the skies and the way you need to fly~

Love

Shafia Yousuf..